Prayer To Excite Myself To Repentance
I beseech Thee, O Lord, to grant me the grace which I need, and which I earnestly desire to obtain. I ask it with confidence, since I know I ought to have a deep contrition and abiding and sincere sentiments of sorrow for my sins. I ask of Thee that feeling of shame which should make me blush for myself. Many souls have been lost by a single mortal sin. How many times have I not merited this judgment for my many and great sins?
I ask of Thee an intense sorrow for having committed them, tears to weep over them, a broken and contrite heart at the memory of them.
What a sight for me, a sinner, to behold Jesus Christ living and in agony on the tree of the Cross! O my Creator and Redeemer, how great was Thy love when Thou didst will to exchange heaven for earth, the glory of Thy heavenly life for this life of pain, and to suffer a death of infamy for me - for my sins!
Look, O my soul; look at and consider thy past life - what hast thou done for Jesus Christ in the past - at this present time, what art thou doing for Jesus Christ - in the future what wilt thou do for Jesus Christ? Speak, O my soul, with Jesus crucified; tell Him thy thoughts, tell them to Him with all simplicity; tell them to Him just as thou thinkest them.
Pour out thyself, O my heart, to thy God. Let thy thoughts turn from Him to thyself thy prayer is always good and fervent when it is true and sincere, when it speaks as a friend speaks, to a friend, as a subject speaks to his king, as a slave speaks to his master. Accuse thyself, O my soul, of the evil thou hast done, make known all thy wounds, thy weakness, thy doubts, thy waverings, thy most secret thoughts.
May the Lord, my Creator, cure me, and shelter me beneath His pardoning grace.